Sorry naman talaga sa blogdrive ko... Napakaraming kalokohan din ang naipost ko dito at hindi ko mabitawan kaya sana hindi naman burahin ng blogdrive ang account ko kahit hindi ko na siya nagagamit.

Anyway, para sa mga nagtityagang tumingin sa blog kong ito at nag-iisip na baka patay na ko all this time dahil hindi na ako nagpopost ng entry, dito na lang kayo pumunta...

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Ayun. Jaa!

Nahirapan akong gumising... katulad nung mga nakaraang araw, nagnanakaw ako ng tulog sa sasakyan papuntang Pateros. Ako na yata ang resident antukin ng group namin. Laging bangag. At bakit kamo kami pumupuntang Pateros nang maaga kahit hindi pa naman dapat kami pumupunta dun dahil free week namin ngayon?

Eh kasi naman, pag dumating yung week ng community namin, super kasagsagan na ng data gathering dun sa isa pang community health nursing subject namin... eh di mamamatay kami. Kaya maaga pa lang, tinotoxic na namin ang aming mga sarili. Ang saya noh?

Nung Tuesday yung unang punta namin dun for ocular inspection. Bilang kami yung unang pupunta, gumawa na kami ng letter para dun sa mga iinterviewhin ng klase. Charan! Sobrang sinabon kami (actually sina Iaii at Eian lang naman ang sinabon kasi sila yung nakipag-usap kay ma'am) dahil dun sa letter pati na rin dun sa interview questions namin. So yun... meeting-meeting sa baranggay hall at ciempre napagdesisyunang i-re-revise yung letter and interview questions bago pa man kami gumawa ng kung anong hakbang. Parang nasayang yung umaga.

Mula sa isang health center, nag-tricycle kami papunta sa isa pang health center para asikasuhin yung spot map. Ayun, dinivide nung Ate Gay (midwife) yung areas tapos bumunot na kami nung area namin. Yung area namin... charan na naman! Ang yaman galore. Anlalaki nung mga bahay tapos anlinis nung kalsada tapos halos walang congestion. Ahuhuhu... ang problema namin ay halos wala silang problema. At bonus pa ang nakakatakot magbahay-bahay kasi baka pagbagsakan kami ng pinto nung mga maharlika. Ahohoho

Ayun.

Balik tayo sa ngayon... ay sa kahapon na lang. Pumunta si Tabs dito sa bahay para gawin yung art tour folio namin. Mejo may nagawa naman kami... at meron na kaming idea kung paano pa gagawin yung ibang bagay. At sabay kaming naghihimutok at nagngangalit habang tumatawa at kumakain... da best!

Ngayon itutuloy ko yung art tour folio. Sana matapos na.

N105 kasi eh... sana lang hindi lang utak ko na-autoclave dun... pati kaluluwa na rin.

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Nung nalaman kong hindi ka pwedeng uminom nang humihinga, sinubukan kong gawin yun. Hindi naman ako naging successful. Ngayon alam ko nang detrimental pala sa kalusugan kung naging matagumpay ako sa ganung gawain.

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Dati nung maliit pa ko, madalas kaming pumunta sa Quiapo. Nakikita ko doon yung mga tinitinda sa gilid ng simbahan-- yung mga samu't saring dahun-dahon, mga kahoy na pilipit, at mga boteng may label na "pamparegla." Sabi ko sa sarili ko, "Bakit naman gugustuhin ng mga babaeng magkaregla? Eh ang hassle kaya nun!"

Ngayon alam ko na. Ang mga tao talaga... ang hilig magkasala.

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Ang problema sa mga life changing lessons na nakukuha ko sa buhay ko, napapabago lang nila ako ng ilang minuto. Ilang araw at most. Tapos nakakalimutan ko na sila. Iba na talaga pag nasanay sa rote learning. Pati siguro pagmamakaawa para sa salvation pag mamatay na ko ika-cram ko pa.

I went home right after clinic visits and didn't bother to go to my afternoon class. Just thinking about taking jeepney rides to and from school makes my head hurt all the more.

And I feel uglier than usual.

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If you see a charcoal sky
on a charcoal morning
do think of the charcoal trees
how their leaves glisten
with charcoal dew
for charcoal me
and charcoal you

If you see a charcoal sky
on a charcoal noon
do think of charcoal pie
the charcoal smell
wafting, wafting
calling out
to charcoal children
come running about

If you see a charcoal sky
on a charcoal night
do think of charcoal breeze
and the charcoal stars
how they shine and glisten
above charcoal roofs
as charcoal breeze whispers
"Come hither... come hither"

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I need  to get some sleep.

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I'll dress me up in daggers and hold you tight like a lover would.

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I have to go... I have to go.

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Eat your slice of wonder bread and come back to bed... and never get up again.

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Samson came to my bed and told me that my hair was red... told me I was beautiful, he came into my bed.

WTF, my hair isn't frikkin red!

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*babble* *babble* *stab* *stab* *grin*

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I'm a very happy little girl. Skipping on prairies, picking roses, putting them in my basket, and wiping my bloody fingers with my skirt.

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I'm a very happy girl.

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Kahapon nagluto na naman kami! Spaghetti ulit kaso meat sauce na at may mojos pa! Masaya masaya... at kumain kami habang nanonood "Ang Cute ng Ina Mo." I can honestly say that it was one of the most educational movies I have ever watched. Galing grabe.

INDIA
      I- inside
      N- now
      D- dahil
      I- imbyerna
      A- ako

IRAN
     I- Ikaw
     R- rin
     A- ang
     N- nawalan

Yes!

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Meron akong nararamdaman pero hindi ko alam kung paano sasabihin... alam niyo yung parang bumibigat yung sikmura niyo tapos parang nagbubuhol yung entrails at sama-samang lumulubog sa kung saang hindi ko alam... yung parang kaba... yung parang... parang... crush... yung parang... pag-ibig...

kelangan ko sigurong pumunta sa banyo.

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Ang dami kong dapat isipin
hindi ka na maisingit
pero sa gayong nalaman kong
wala akong panahon sa'yo
naisip na rin kita kahit paano.

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Kanina pumunta kaming SM Megamall, Lopez Museum, at SM Megamall ulit. Kasi bumisita kami sa art walk sa SM at umattend naman ng lecture ng dalawang artists sa Lopez Museum... so makulay ang araw ko. Gusto ko sanang i-post yung pictures nung mga paintings and photographs kaso baka makasuhan ako dahil sa intellectual property rights. Pwede na akong makulong. Ahuhu

Bumili nga pala kami ng candy apple. Ayun kakaiba. Masaya, masarap din. Hindi ko na nakuhanan ng picture kasi... ayun. Kinain ko na.

Tsaka first time ko palang mag-MRT kanina. Noob me. Ahohohoho

We were shadows of past sunsets
ripples made by the tendrils of time
we were a great divide
meeting at the junction
somewhere in the back of my mind

Tonight I write without regret
as waves crash down upon the distance
my hand reaches out to wipe the shores
of promises written on the sand

I write without regret
there is no regretting the truth
that we were shadows of past sunsets
the suns of aging youth

I was her times before
She is this tonight and 'morrow
We- she or I
will never be once more

Tonight I wrote the saddest lines
of some love lost but not to another
with the sky hanging thick
broken by silence
the quiet cry of the lonesome

It is not that grandeur gone
left too big an abyss
it is not that glory days
without would be too missed
It is not that the blue stars
are now just old light

I regret not a thing...
it is just that
Once upon a time
we were once upon a night.

Kahapon... grabe. Ayun nga, pumunta kaming Pangasinan nung Friday ng gabi. Yung kapatid ko ayaw magpaiwan kahit may sakit cia kaya ayun, inapoy ng lagnat kinaumagahan. Ahmm... hindi maganda mag-make up yung mga bading. Nakakalungkot. Ang ganda ganda nung bride... buti na lang hindi na-chorva nung bading yung kagandahan niya.

Umuwi na kami nung hapon tapos nakarating kami sa bahay ng 5:00. Ayun... nag-make up ako ng sarili ko. Ok naman yata. Ang astig nung debut ni Fatz! Daming 18 chevers. Super Masci reunion ang naganap.

Tapos pala, tinuruan ko si Ronel mag-moonwalk. Eh ang kaso naka-high heels ako kaya hindi maciadong effective. Opo, nag-aaral ako kung pano magmoonwalk. Nanonood ako ng vids ni Michael Jackson sa Youtube. Super fun.

Ayun.

Gusto ko lang sabihin na... wala. Wala pala akong gustong sabihin. Ahoho

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The juicy stuff is at http://koiapiks.multiply.com (if pictures are juicy, that is)

Except for our attending major classes (read: N105 and N119), we didn't really do much academic work this week. I, for one, spent all my free time (even time that isn't supposed to be free) to go to all the welcome thingies for the freshies. For some reason, I want to be involved in a lot of activities... they're a lot of fun anyway. Plus, they burn calories. Ahehehe

Earlier, we held the buddy selection for the freshmen. The new kids had a knack for making cheers! Hmm... great potential.

Time really flies fast, especially when you're looking back on things past.

Third year na ako. I guess it's high time my "ate" instincts kicked in... maybe that's why I was so enthusiastic about seeing the freshies.

The events I attended helped me get to know my friends from batch 2010 better, too.

a dash of 2009 and a pinch of 2010

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I hadn't read the proposal for the dress code when I decided to have my right ear pierced. Turns out, only one piercing on each ear would be allowed girls if the code gets approved. On the other hand, if it doesn't get approved, we would have to wear our uniforms every-frikkin-humid-sweltering-day. And when we're in uniform, I doubt that those in power would find multiple piercings acceptable.

Just my luck.

Tsk. They shouldn't even push for students wearing their uniforms everyday. Heck, there shouldn't even be a dress code. Students should be allowed to go to school in ball gowns, cat costumes, even wearing nothing at all if they were so inclined.

Oh well... that's the way the cookie crumbles.

I don't know why we take so long to communicate something so simple. In our attempt to gently break another's fall, to position ourselves perfectly for the follow through, we overlook the fact that they are falling faster than expected-- falling to pieces. And you can't catch them when they break this way... and you can't put them back together.

I wanna wake up where you are
I won't say anything at all
so why don't you slide...

Sometimes the line between forgiving and forgetting gets blurred. Or maybe the unshed tears obscure one's vision. What is there to do then, when the one who's supposed to do the forgiving forgets? The hard truth is that it is better to earn one's ire than his indifference.

What you feel is what you are
what you are is beautiful

It must be wonderful to be the rose that swallows the tears of the sky.

And I'd do everything
you ever dreamed to be complete
little pieces of the nothing
that fall away

Jerry McGuire got a lot of tongues wagging for saying, "You complete me." After all, how can a person give himself to another completely if he is not complete? But it should occur to us that sometimes, no matter how we try, we still can't say what we mean all because of our limited vocabulary. Sometimes even, words just get in the way... must it take so much effort to let these little things slide?

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The italicized words are from "Slide" by the Goo Goo Dolls.

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Ang galing nung laban nina Federer at Nadal... grabe. Super exciting. Kagabi lang ako nakapanood ng ganoon kagaling na laban ng tennis.